The mirror. Oh the mirror. Back in my ED days, there were times I actually really liked what I saw. But more times than not, I was looking for something wrong. What was wrong with what I saw so that I could point it out and feel bad about whatever it was I found that …
I wish something so simple as finding clothing that made me COMFORTABLE and that felt GREAT would be an easy thing to find. When I was dieting, I had no trouble finding straight sized clothing (NOTE: straight sized clothing typically refers to clothing you can get in mainstream clothing stores – like Target, H&M, Abercrombie, …
I feel like I start every blog post with “this one is the hardest”. Maybe because EVERYTHING about eating disorder recovery is hard! It is hard guys – please remember that. I have yet to meet someone to said that it is the easy! If it is I don’t think they really dove DEEP into …
This post was a hard one to write. Besides the actual weight gain itself the pain which manifested from my body from carrying the extra weight was extremely difficult for me. When I spoke to my therapist about this she told me to re-frame my thinking. She told me to stop blaming my fat for …
I’m going to tackle each one of the challenges I had in my previous blog post and dedicate an entire post as to how I functioned and coped with the issues and challenges. Remember – this is just what worked for ME! You may have success doing other things and that’s amazing too. Digestive issues. …
You hurt. That’s what happens when you gain as much weight as I did. (NOTE – I put actual numbers in my previous post. I’m going to keep numbers out of this post.) I was having a hard time explaining this for today’s post. I mean, how in the heck does one’s body feel when …
If you are like 99.9999999% of women who are undertaking recovery from ANY eating disorder/disordered eating, I can pretty much guarantee that everyone’s number ONE FEAR IS WEIGHT GAIN. I mean, it makes perfect sense. You’ve spent however long desperately trying NOT to gain weight and just as long trying to lose the weight you …
Sounds like a normal sentence, right? “It’s time to eat”. Those words invoked a sense a fear like I had never experienced before. Eat, what do you mean, eat? By now, I realized that I had been starving myself, BUT, as many of you already know, just because you KNOW you are anorexic and you …
Let’s talk a bit about Intuitive Eating. You may or may not of heard of this concept before – it’s based on a book by Evelyn Tribole & Elyse Resch that was written decades ago. It has had several editions published and I think, all in all, it’s a wonderful book for people who have …
So there I was, as described in the last post, standing on the scale with my jaw to the floor. I had been starving myself, eating 3 times a week for over 2 years and I lost 10 lbs. TEN POUNDS! I was beyond angry at myself, the world, everyone in my path. Seriously?!?! I …
