(Note: This has been in my draft posts since October – I’ve backdated it to October 20, 2023 but just know today is February 20, 2024. Thanks for your understanding!) I can’t believe it’s been 3 years. As I’m sitting here writing this I don’t know if that feels like it’s been too long, or …
Out of all the emotions that I experience on the regular, grief has to be one of the hardest for me. Growing up, grief was always portrayed as something that happened after someone died. That the only time it was appropriate to express your grief was when, for example, my grandfather died. Any other time …
I came across a post from someone I follow on Instagram and the caption said something to the effect of “Why you are still holding on to your overshoot weight…” When I say bells went off in my head a millions times over, I’m not exaggerating. At this point, I’m just over 2 years into …
First let me start off my saying I know I’ve missed about 6 months worth of blog posts. And that’s because I’m not in a good place and haven’t been for a while. Even the joy I got from writing to you guys is short-lived. But, like most New Years Resolutions, I made an effort …
As I mentioned before, a lot of the blog posts a wrote were done about a year ago. I just didn’t have my website up and running to be able to post my experiences yet. So today, May 20, 2022 is being written in real time. TRIGGER WARNING – WEIGHT AND NUMBERS COMING UP. Everyone, …
I’m not in the best place right now and I want to share that with you all. Just because I understand recovery and just because I’m doing the work of recovery, it doesn’t mean I don’t hate it. I hate recovering. It’s not the rainbows and unicorns everyone talks about. Recovery has been hard, too …
So, if you’ve read everything up to this point, you know that I’m broken. My immediate family and friends have abandoned me and my husband betrayed me – I’m sitting in the bunker of hell trying to figure out how every single fear I had about ED recovery was coming true and my life, literally, …
So here I am broken beyond belief of my husbands betrayal. I just walked away and ran to my room and cried tears. Sobs that I had never thought were inside of me. Hurt and pain like no other. This kind of betrayal was incomprehensible. My husband would have rather wanted me skinny and dying …
I encourage you to read my previous post about judgement and lack of support for my recovery from my mother, father, siblings and friends. This puts into context how painful the betrayal of my husband was. When I approached my husband to tell him I was going into recovery from an ED we weren’t on …
Remember how I pretty much started off every other blog post with “this is hardest thing”. Yeah, I wasn’t being totally honest. Well, yes, at the time I was writing it I was being truthful about how hard that particular issue was to navigate – that was true. But this topic right here – this …
