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About me

 

Theses about me pages always make me nervous. Why? I’m not completely sure. If I’m not the person you think I am, does that make me less worthy? If I have people come to my website and realize they are way younger or way older than me, does that invalidate my experience? It’s a tricky thing sharing your vulnerability with strangers. So, after thinking about it for a couple of months, I’ve decided to remain somewhat anonymous.

 

I’m in my early 40’s, I’m married and I have 2 kids. I was diagnosed with atypical anorexia in October of 2020. 

 

As far as I could see, there is NOT a lot of people talking about recovery from atypical anorexia. I just think, personally, that there are hundreds of not thousands of people walking around with atypical anorexia, but because of fat phobia in society and medicine, none of these poor women think they are sick enough because they aren’t “stick thin”. As more and more people like myself share my story, my hope is that more people seek treatment for their eating disorder.

 

I “published” this blog in January of 2022, BUT I had written most of my blog posts over the past year. I was just too afraid to share it with the world. And, if I’m being honest, I didn’t know how to make a website and start a blog. I mean, technically, I’m a millennial, so that means I have a free pass to not know everything about the world of webpages and programming, right?!?

 

Some Ground Rules:

  1. I won’t be giving my name, where I live, who my kids are and husband are, etc…. BUT I will tell you most everything else personal about me as it pertains to my recovery journey.
  1. Triggers and such. So this is a HOT topic. If you are involved in the ED recovery world, body positivity/neutrality, diet culture, etc…. you know that weight and weight loss and pictures and anything associated with such subjects are taboo. But, the GREAT thing about owning MY OWN website and writing about MY OWN journey, is that I get to do what I want for MY healing and MY journey. I will put a disclaimer at the top of any blog post that talks about weight and numbers
  1. There is a way to “contact me” via email; see CONTACT in menu. I will try and read everything you guys send, but I‘m being honest when I say I’m not a replacement for a therapist or an ED specialist. If you have questions about any of that I’m going to direct you to contact someone who is qualified. I would love to hear from you if my stories helped you at all along your journey of recovery! 
  1. Don’t be an as*hole. If you don’t like me, don’t like what I have to say, tell me I did something wrong, or anything that implies you know better, you can just screw off now. After the year I’ve been through I don’t have the time, space or energy to even communicate with people who portray their hatred of themselves onto others who are actually trying to better their lives. Any emails sent to me of that nature will be blocked and banned. I won’t engage.
  1. I’m not a professional. Let me repeat that. I .AM.NOT.A.PROFESSIONAL. I am simply sharing my thoughts, feelings and emotions. They will NOT be what someone who is trained to help will say. I know that I still have loads and loads of work to do. Let me be vulnerable, let me heal in my own time and please don’t expect me to help you in any way except to share my story. One day maybe I will get the education to do this for you, but that time is not now.
  1. Love you all….Oh and I LOVE the beach and flowers so there will be pictures of them everywhere!